happy wife / happy mama

I'm the happiest when I am with them. To me, this is what matters and what is truly important. 

February 2012 . Laguna Beach

"The best thing to hold onto in life is each other."

                                                  - Audrey Hepburn

Cousins are the best playmates!

They are so easy to please.  :)

hot fudge sundaes and a movie!

then I woke up to this! makes me so happy.

happy kids.

off to the lake and park!

snacks and cuddling are our favorite!

I love them.

my monkeys!

sisters <3

after loads of fun and non stop snacking, this is what Sammy gets... tummy ache. 

but that didn't stop us from eating some more.

at home... girly stuff, push ups and horse back ride. lol...

These kids make my heart melt. I love them to pieces. Always happy times with the cousins. 

My joy comes from God.

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Lately, I've been MIA on my 365 grateful project blog. It's not that I've stopped being grateful, it's just that some days it's hard to figure things out. The only permanent thing in life is change. I've been a bit sad lately, for so many reasons. It's probably no big deal, but its weighing me down. I need to stop and pray and really think what gives me joy. God gave me my family and friends to love and care for. They make me happy. But the truth is, my joy doesn't depend on anything or anyone. It depends on God. His unconditional love, my joy should be coming from following Him. Only then can I truly appreciate the people around me. God is the only one who can truly satisfy me. I am happy and thankful for my husband and my daughter. God blessed me with two beautiful, wonderful people to love me. But even the people closest to your heart cannot fully satisfy you. So starting today, I am on a mission. The first relationship I need to fix is my relationship with God. I want to be closer to Him and fully understand His love. 

To my amazing husband, I love you more than anything in this world. I am thankful for you. Everyday I long to be a better wife. A better partner. Because you deserve nothing but the best. And I am so far from it. But know that I am praying, because I know I cannot be better on my own. I pray for God's guidance and for Him to stay in the center of our marriage, He is our only way to success. I cannot wait to hold your wrinkly hand in that rocking chair in our front porch 40 years from now. I love you forever. 

To my sweet sweet baby girl. I would do anything for you. I hope you know how much I love you. I just can't show you enough. I know there will be a lot of questions in the future. I will never be prepared for it, but I pray that you see and understand how much I love you. Know that I did it all for you. I am honored to be your mother. You are my first great blessing. And I pray for God to continually guide me, and mold me to be the mother you deserve. I love you more than you'll ever know.